So long...

... but I finally did it.
I said goodbye to him.

Well, I told him that its coming. I think goodbye by text is so tacky, so I am writing him a letter.

I feel awful about it. I can't believe I will never talk to him, never see him again. I love him. But I think that eventually this is the best way for me to find some peace.

Luckily I am so stuffed full of benzodiazepines that the full whammy hasn't hit me yet. Better get writing.