Doctor, doctor...

... I keep thinking I'm insane.

That's because you are.

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Tough day.

I had to go for a medical, for social security purposes. I was dreading it - what if they say I'm ok to work? How will I get any money?
But he didn't say that. Within 4 minutes he said he'd sign me off for as long as he could. He said he was sorry for making me go down there. He said I shouldn't even think about working until I feel a lot better.
Which is exactly what I wanted to hear, before I went. But afterwards I cried.
It's hard to hear someone telling you you're not fit to work, because you're not right in the head.
In fact I think that's one of the hardest things I've ever heard.

I've never wanted to be better more in my life.