Wednesday, May 24, 2006

List 1

Because I forget, and no one else knows, I thought I should make a list. These are the things I blame him for:

  • Telling me he loved me when it patently wasn't true because he left me
  • Letting me buy this house, knowing I depended on money from him to pay the mortgage, and then leaving
  • Driving me mad - I might have had slightly (ok very) off patches before, but not anything like this for 10 years
  • Letting me move to a place where I don't know anyone
  • Letting me spend a fortune on him - clothes, food, furniture, meals out, rail tickets, etc
  • Making promises to my kids that he broke - everything from the fact he would be here to help with exams, to the fact he would just be here.
  • Damaging my eldest daughter's (particularly, but also the other two) view of men.
  • Telling me he wasn't like other men I'd met (I didn't realise he meant worse)
  • Letting me trust him
  • Letting me fall in love with him
  • Letting me blame myself for all of the above.

This is a work in progress. No doubt I have forgotten some.