Sleep

I woke up in the night wondering what the hell I'd done.
Why did I tell him?
I felt awful.

Then I reminded myself of all the things he did to me that were far worse.
I nearly lost my life.
I have a whole new bunch of scars.
My kids trust has been shattered, again.
I am penniless and alone.
I can't leave the house by myself.
I am taking up to 18 pills a day just to keep me going.
I have no idea if I'm going to be ok.

He broke countless promises to us. I broke one.

I went back to sleep.