Deal Breaker

Today (tonight) I am having a hard time.

I am having a hard time getting my head round the fact that I am stuck in this godforsaken dump BY MYSELF when that was never the plan.
If I knew I would be here by myself, I would never have gone ahead with the move.

It would have been a deal breaker.

Yes, he hasn't spoken to me in over a year, and yes I should be getting over it, but clearly I'm not.

And anyone who thinks he is a 'dear soul' hasn't been on the pointy end of him, have they?

Or maybe that's just it.

Maybe they have.