Saturday, April 18, 2009

Attention Deficit

My psychiatrist has waved around a new diagnosis of ADD -- Attention Deficit Disorder.

I had to fill in a questionnaire, and I have to say that it did feel a lot like me -- interrupting when people speak, forgetting things, losing things, etc -- and my psychiatrist analysed my answers and he says I definitely have attention deficit features (but not hyperactive features).

And he wants to treat me with methylphenidate (Ritalin) without going through my GP, who, he says, will have a hard time accepting the diagnosis of adult ADD, and the prescription is going to cost me about £80 for a months trial. God bless the NHS I say.

It is only a trial so I might just stump it up, but I don't like doing it behind my GP's back. He's been good to me. And I'm scared stiff of the possible side effects of this med -- my heart has misbehaved in the past...
But I want to get better and he says it might help the depression...

Watch this space.

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In other news, number two daughter is just back from my mother.

I say my mother, but it turns out that she has disowned me.

That hurts.

She said I pushed her away and after that she just thought of me as adopted, and not her real daughter.

I guess I have a lot of stuff to think about tonight.